Hi and thank you for posting the way it is. You and others deserve a better life in sobriety when we address the demons that this damn disease seem to magnify.
Your post is a great example for newcomers and old timers the perils we face even with sober time behind us.
I need to remember that alcohol for us is very powerful, cunning, baffling and insidious. I even after a lot of years not drinking need meetings to this day. It’s my insurance. I just noticed I had an anniversary Thursday, I’ll try to remember my 40th if I’m still around.
My prayers to you.
BE WELL