Serenidad -- little longer than a year ago I was planning to go to inpatient rehab. Because for years, I could not quit drinking longer than 1-2-3 days, never had any success with sobriety. Then I got into an intensive SR involvement and developed a recovery regimen that has worked for me... but to be honest, to date, I dread relapse because deep down I know with quite certainty, that I would not be able to do it the same way one more time. I think I would need something much more externally controlled and supervised then. I often think, in my mind, what would or could happen then... and the first thought I usually get is quite the life/death thing. Knowing myself, I really think I would not make it again without a serious inpatient program at least to start with.
Just wanted to share this with you. Please think about it.