Oh Mrrryah. I relate to so much to your post. I'm rooting for you, just like I keep rooting for myself even when I fall down. The fact that you've come back so quickly seems like progress to me.
Don't be embarrassed. I see a strong person who I believe is really going down the right path. At least for myself, even when I've had a drink when I said I wldn't...I keep thinking, what if I never even tried this. What if I was where I was a year ago, totally stuck in a bottle with absolutely no idea how to get out. At least now, I see the bright side of things and I want to continue on this path, and I know you do to. Let's keep on keeping on!
(((HUGS))).