Alot of your post speaks to me. I've LIVED alot of your story.
The periods of sustained sobriety...The periods of falling. And then coming right back.
My job is to stay sober TODAY. And today only. However that needs to be.
For many days i have accomplished that goal. But if I've been accomplishing it the wrong way...Again EVENTUALLY i will fall. I need to allow something else to take control. I give myself over today. It's NOT my job to run this show!
I wish you well Mrryah. Continue forth to improving your life.