...if drinking was irrational, we simply wouldn't do it and none of us would be here.
It is the fact that an alcoholic sees drinking as rational, whereas other see it as irrational is the root of alcoholism ...
my drinking was irrational.
and i KNEW it was irrational.
i decided to simply not do it.
then, irrationally, i returned to drinking.
irrationally, i did this countless times.
the fact that i couldn't "simply not do it" when i KNEW it was irrational had me in despair.
i didn't see my drinking ort repeated returns to it as rational.
or reasonable.
or making sense.
but did it anyway.