So accurately worded. " Chasing the MEMORY of a high"
I am facing this now and on Day 2 - feel nervous, but feel great too.
And I would feel exactly the same way. Dread and fear would come on after a few drinks, and then the next day would be even more dreadful. Constantly thinking about should I have drunk tonight? Will I drink tomorrow? What will this do to my health? Will i get up middle of the night?