Alcohol = No Pleasure
In the beginning of my drinking career I derived a tremendous sense of physical pleasure from alcohol. Almost immediately after taking that first sip I would feel all of my anxiety melt away, and an almost euphoric feeling would come over me.
However, as the years passed that feeling began to fade. Before long, I stopped receiving ANY physical or emotional pleasure from alcohol. In fact, almost as soon as I started drinking I would feel overcome with dread and anxiety.
Yet, I continued to drink.
It's like I was chasing a non-existent high. I suppose what I was doing was chasing the MEMORY of a high.
Did anybody else go through this?