After years of become alcohol dependant, drinking becomes rational ...
well, no. it doesn't.
but yes, it makes you feel normal and quitting is scary.
none of that makes drinking rational after dependence develops.
it makes it understandable.
i'd be real careful with this statement:This is where I say to my AV, drinking is rational and I am going to behave irrationally about it. just because it would have been waaayyy too easy for my "voice" to immediately flip that over into the opposite.
this is kinda like a double negative, and my trying-to-stay-quit-mind would have had a field day with this.
but, and it's a big BUT: if it works for you, do it.