Babs - I've struggled with motivation in recovery. Alcohol was always the carrot dangling in front of me to get through the drudgery. Without that, I get lost at times. Breaking large projects into smaller steps helps. So does fresh air!
BoozeFree - You've had a lot going on - between the loss of your friend, the service, and spending the holidays with relatives who use. Over the years I've found that the pain often comes after the crisis. Keep your eye on your recovery - help your friends who are struggling, and reach out when you are.