Originally Posted by
Payne 
I knew I was in trouble when the thought, "Oh hell, I wish I could just sleep until they come back and tell me someone else got it and I can stop hoping." ... Guess the alcoholic is still beating me up, only now the voice is my own.
Oh ya, I'm exactly this way. But I'm starting to catch it and not do it as much, thanks to my ACA sponsor, who has caught on to two big patterns: Self-abandonment and thinking that stuff I do "doesn't count."
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