Dee74, thank you for the advice on how to interrupt the auto pilot mode! I think posting to SR could be a lot help during those times.
HeadLump, thank you for your reassurances about going back to AA. I'm beginning to feel more confident in attending tonight's sessions. The kindness that the members of SR have shown today reminds me of the importance of reaching out and accepting support.
Ethos23, thank you for your insights about shame. It seems that a part of me has gotten used to feeling shame - especially because of how much drinking I used to do. I'd love to live a life in which I do not have to harbor so much of it.