Hi Lisa
If you're an alcoholic, as you say, you drank because you have an addiction to alcohol.
When we cross that line, falling off the wagon becomes our natural state. NOT drinking is abnormal for us, though that's the state we strive for.
You've lost ten days of bragging rights. In the big picture of things, that's nothing!!! And you know, ALOT of people have false starts a few times before they get it. I certainly did.
I think the majority of people will welcome you back with open arms, because they understand this. don't worry about the judges. You're there for YOU, not to impress anybody else.
to Not Giving Up!!!
H