hi Cecilia, maybe look at it a different way. There are many, many inspirational people and stories here and many depressing ones also. The site, like most things in life is what you make of it. Maybe try making it an active part of your recovery.....not just some light entertainment to dip in or out of when you can be bothered. Get to know some of the posters, look for those that seem to face similar issues or find themselves n a similar position in life as yourself, reach out to people and try to help. Learn from people and feel the emotion both good and bad. Learn to give to and take from the site. I suspect if you do this you will feel that the site can be a significant part of your recovery and that you will become a more humble and caring person because of it. As I said though, you will only get out of it what you put into it. Welcome back and I look forward to seeing you hang out here a little more.....