My daughter's death rocked me to the core to. I gave it my best shot to think of a reason why drinking would help me. Each scenario I came up with led me to the same place. Drinking would only make a bad situation worse.
No one ever said sobriety was all unicorns and rainbows, so if drinking is not the solution I better figure out what is. For me it was getting professional help connecting with my higher power and reaching out to those who care about me.
I'm not always sure about what the solution is but I know darn well what it isn't