decided not to throw in the towel
I have achieved 10 months of sobriety, but in the last month have faced two significant blows that are rocking me to the core. On Sunday, I called my sponsor to tell her I was done. I was so hurt and full of anger, all I wanted to do was drink and go back down in that hole forever. The alternative was just too much - forgive, let go of the resentments trust God, give up control, etc. I wanted none of that. Thankfully, I did not drink and realized that sobriety is the only option for me. I feel like my reliance upon this program and god of my understanding, as well as humility and willingness, has grown through all of this. I am so glad I did not drink and can continue on this journey. I don't ever want to go through the first 10 months of all this again!