Thanks for posting newpage119. Reminds me of the 50th day I had. My emotional state was all over the map. But I can assure you that it gets easier. For me, it took about 4 months to gain some serinity. And it got better after that. A good night's sleep really helps. Im so glad you're sober. Your well on your way to a better life. Your old friend AL wants to put you in misery and pain. Don't give him the pleasure. The price is too high. Congrats on 50 days!!