Hi folks... Reaching out to whomever is around this early. Woke up riddled with anxiety, the kind that makes me want to stay in bed with a blanket over my head. And it's not about anything except waking up.
My last nine months have been this really broken relationship with my job in which if I see a way to get out of something, I do it. My boss is gone all week. No one to account for me. And I have this desire to just check out. Not a craving to use, but the behavior that always leads me there.
Posting this is helping get my head on right. Anyone have any thoughts about routine in early recovery? How did you get one, really is my question, when everything in me is shrinking against it?