I agree with not needing to talk to him everyday. He actually calls in the afternoon AND the evening. So I get a double whammy.
My therapist is always saying "be gentle with yourself". And I am hearing it again on this thread. I guess when I re-read what I write, I am pretty hard on myself. Maybe that's where I need to start first.
I was *trying* to mediate the other day. I try to envision myself before God and feeling His grace....but it didn't work. My mind is so insanely logical that all I could envision was God sitting at a desk and me sitting in front of it. A DESK for crying out loud...but that's me. He was giving me a list (I love lists) of "how to get strength" because that is what I was praying for. The FIRST thing on the list and I swear I did not focus on the list...but the first thing on the list was "love yourself".
And here I am, hearing this again.
Indeed, this should be telling me something!
And about the "rules"....should I tell him I'm not following his stupid rules, or just not tell him anything about the rules and do what I want?