Originally Posted by
Magellan 
I seem to be getting worse with drinking as I am getting more resolve to quit, I don't get it, makes no sense. I have to stop today!! I have the tools I just need to use them, it isn't that difficult but it is.
Now that you've tasted sobriety it seems harder, yet you want it more. The more you know, the less you know... Or whatever that saying is
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Reorder, regroup, remember what it is you want.
Use your tools.
The thing about AA that makes sense to me (and I'm not big on AA really but do like meetings, sometimes... Just like I like going to Mass, sometimes lol)...is the exchange of phone numbers. If you feel you're going to drink, you're supposed to reach out BEFORE that first drink. Or, come here BEFORE that first drink. If you can use the tools and support BEFORE the AV chokes you into submission you will get stronger every time.