This is a great topic newpage. Quitting alcohol really made my emotions jump to the forefront of my awareness now that I lacked the self medicating effects of alcohol. Combine this with the anxiety that quoting drinking brought to me and I can sympathies its with these new found feelings you have to deal with.
For me, alcohol was a coat of armor that protected me from getting to close to anyone and enabled me to some bear the tremendous loneliness I felt. There is some sadness and regret for all the wasted time,, but if I think do I want to go back to the self medicated cocoon I lived in, absolutely not.
This stage is not easy, but there is hope ahead. I too am right around 50 days, so the feelings and emotions and fresh as I deal with them every day too.
For me it has been getting a little easier over time. I hope you are finding something similar.