is my resent normal?
I listened to my husband tell me on the phone tonight about how he participated in Yuwipi (you-wee-pe) ceremony at treatment today. It is a Lakota ceremony in which an elder prays for you and your family and for healing, etc in a sweat lodge type setting. He was really happy and grateful to be a part of it.
I found myself getting really jealous. Jealous that I was stuck writing in my journal or counting on my 1 hour alanon and 1 hour therapy a week to help give me strength. I was mad. In fact, I really didn't even want to speak with him.
Has anyone ever found themselves getting upset/jealous over their A's recovery. Not because they are recovering, but because they get to take the "time off" to heal and get a head start, whereas you are stuck trying to recover while also dealing with a thing called "life"?
I do know that it is inherently wrong of me to get angry at him....but what do I do about it? How do I help myself?