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Congrats on 50.
I think most of us go through something like this. Feelings, and just everything in life, gets startlingly real and sometimes intense. I've been through many similar phases since I got sober ~11 months ago, and some of them scared the *** out of me. The thing to do is get through and learn to accept that sober life will contain periods like this, even though they do get less intense with time or maybe we just get used to our own emotions. At this point for me, I actually enjoy it. It sounds like you don't mind the feelings either very much. There are peaceful days (hours), and highly emotional ones
I love your last sentence, very positive, inspired and inspiring -- way to go!