If I really knew what to believe, I am supposing my alcoholism and chronic addiction would be solved
that's a very convenient thing to believe. keeps the door wide open to continued drinking. can't solve my alcoholism (which i take to mean 'can't stop drinking and be okay'; please correct me if that's not it. ) unless and until i know what to believe.
Jeremy,
addiction and alcoholism don't get 'solved' by what you believe.
putting a belief into action has better results. and you'll find here that beliefs can be quite different yet people can find ways to 'solve' their alcoholism and addiction.
the first step is not drinking. regardless of belief.
and if that proves not to be sustainable by itself, then more or different "belkief" won't make it work.
what are you actually going to DO?