Thank you soberwolf for your pictoral 'depiction. To Dee74 and W4Wizard, just saying; 'Glad to be an alcoholic' has nothing to do with 'being active'. It is a lifelong disease, something we must deal with always. We have a 'daily reprieve' in our sobriety, something we can be proud of, if we are able to skip self -centeredness. Like mfanch, I value all my past, (and present experiences). Once I can get past the active stage, the 'fact of my disease' becomes something I can get my head around and deal with and accept wholeheartedly. It's there, I choose to use it how I can. I celebrate my disease and my recovery. It is worth it!!!