dbh

I told myself this heading into the holiday. I do get a lot of joy giving gifts and seeing others get excited about something that I gave them.

It's not like I truly need anything either.

Even with years of recovery under my belt, my inner child sits dangerously too close to the surface. Guess I should be grateful that these triggers only happen a couple times a year. They used to happen a couple times a week.

I'm glad that I was able to identify the trigger and talk about it with my husband. I equated the lack of gifts with being unloved and unworthy. This is not how I remember feeling as a child. As a child I mostly felt embarassed for my family situation.

Thanks for responding. I wasn't sure whether anyone else would related, but it did help me to write things out.

I had a much better day today. Now I just need to get through New Years! :-)

Cheers,

db