This was a very helpful and honest post--thank you.
I also had a relatively "easy" time quitting and staying quit, but a month or so ago
my AV started in on me about doing some wine tasting again--I live right on a wine trail
so I drive by temptation every day.
Until last month I easily ignored the "lifestyle" I have chosen to remove from my own life, but I did have to do some "urge surfing" myself in the past few weeks.
I really didn't even want to "own" I was craving but I finally did and just admitting it to myself helped quite a lot.
Like you, it has been a bit humbling and reminded me that sobriety is a gift which cannot be complacently enjoyed.
It requires active renewal, or at least it does for me.
Happy Holidays Melinda!