its so hard.......I still haven't responded. I'm speechless.. I know he will want to spend xmas with us. He has never missed one yet. He has spoken about it often the last several months and how much he loves to be at our house xmas eve/day. I want to spend xmas with him......but I want to spend it with a healthy him.....so much I want this xmas can't be bought..I also would like to have xmas with my sweet little granddaughter. Having him over will be sooooooooooooo painful, yet part of me wonders if we should do it anyhow....eventually he will be picked up on the warrant, and then it may be years before we spend xmas together again.......sigh..........this truly sucks!!!