Move on from her and from that home group... something way wrong there. I did my first three steps without a sponsor all in one day. All it took was being brutally honest with myself and willingness. You don't need a sponsor for that.. they can't do it for you and it sounds like you already have what's required so just trust yourself and move on in the Steps. I got a sponsor by Step 4 and, though I could have just followed the Big Book doing it, a sponsor's guidance on how to do it (for me and not all) made it easier. And besides, that's who I was going to ask to hear my 5th anyway. In the meantime, keep coming back and sharing. I know you know the importance of that.
