I want you to know that I am not usually this is the facts, mam, type person. It's getting late, and I am going to go to sleep soon. I do understand the hurt and the rejection that you are feeling. Sometimes when you are going thru this you need the validation and hugs also, well (((((((((hugs)))))))))))) and I do truly mean that. You are a terrific person. You have gone thru so much already and you didn't have anyone to lean on, or to validate any of your feelings.
You know what I learned, your feelings really do matter, it's an inner thing that you have that helps you to protect yourself.
You matter to me. I care about you.
I don't know what time zone you are in, but in mine it is after 2 am, if you are in the same, just try to get some sleep and know that you found a place where you are accepted and loved.
(((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
amy