Again this is not a share about a spouse/partner but my mother. I went no contact with her over the summer and it ate me up. I obsessed over her and my decision for a month. But, slowly, very slowly it has gotten better. I feel so much relief now. And gratitude. I am grateful I gave myself this gift of eliminating the most toxic person in my life. I only wish I did it sooner.
Give yourself time. It gets better and the feelings will fade away