Originally Posted by
michael1111 
Didn't want to but chose to, if that makes sense.
Now it makes sense.
I understand the compulsion to drink isn't a choice. The action to drink is definitely a choice. You have a say in whether or not you'll beat your addiction.
You have the only say.
My words may seem harsh, but you asked what you should do. I suggest you start being honest about what is happening in your life. You are not a passive player in your condition. Beer didn't happen to you today. You chose it. You can unchoose it.