Going to the hospital tomorrow to get the particulars about starting on the paperwork. Had a lousy time earlier. Went for a walk. Felt alien walking around the crowds of people. Like i was looking through someone else's eyes, i didn't feel like i was really there. Kept wondering why do i even bother with it all as i lost it all years ago and i'm too old to begin again Hate to see couples. Hurts to be alone. Finished walk quick and couldn't wait to get back to my my windowless room.
Found NLP center near my favorite bookstore. Must go in next time i'm in area.
Wish i could custom make personality and wipe away my own.