Welcome Jayman. Your story is a familiar one, most of us have been there at one point. Recognizing the problem is a big step, congrats on doing so. Do you think you might try AA again this time around? Or perhaps something different? Reaching true sobriety is going to mean doing things you are not comfortable with, and things that you wont' like, no matter what path you choose. SR can be invaluable in helping you learn about various methods as well as being a very key support piece in itself. Hope you will stick around for a while!