I was about your age when I 'woke up' to the fact that ACOA issues were in my life...and now going through another tough spot...as life is hard and new things have come up from deeper down. Glad that I worked on it as soon as things came up and trusting God to take me through (I am exhausted as well...but choose to intentionally believe that if I am brought to it; I can get through it). There have been multiple real life traumas as well as other situations where I was in crisis...and am regaining my ability to feel thankful for these situations as they help me learn new things about life...and get through things.
It doesn't feel simple or easy and it isn't...but I have learned that it just takes what it takes...and each of us is very individual...and I have had so much more happiness in the almost 20 years since becoming more aware...as well as the hard stuff to get through...so welcome and so glad you are here.