I've been brooding on this thread all day.
I am over that all, I am sober three weeks in not so many hours. I am regaining life, and dreaming of better things. I won't allow the world to define me, I am not schizophrenic, alcoholic, gambling loser.
jeremy this is the kind of thinking that leads you directly back into that pattern where you start to believe you can do this by sheer force of will, you hit a bump in the road, you 'awfulise' and say whats the use, and you drink and go off your meds again.
Yes you
are more than the label...but to ignore the problem behind the label, or pretend it doesn't exist, or that you've overcome it in 3 weeks?
That's not rational thought my friend.
I know how badly you want to believe that you can do this by force of will with minimal disruption to your life.
We've all been there.
I've been there.
My stubborness nearly killed me Jeremy.
Give it some more thought - go back and read some of your past threads and what you resolved to do.
think of help not as a weakness, a punishment or an emasculation, but a way to move forward and get to somewhere you've not be able to get on your own.
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