Sorry about my message the other day, I'm "ok"
I'm still around. Thanks so much for those who replied. It helps to much to know that I'm no the only one that's gone through this pain.
Special thanks for all of you who tried to call me, I was asleep by then (sorry to the moderators for posting my number, I was desperate at the time and just wanted help, I know it isn't appropriate).
Just thanks for being here. I wish I had people like you around me. I've been to AA and everyone seems to be at least 20 years older and they all seem as if they've been sober for years. I'm 33 and new, new at trying to be sober and new at drinking in general, my first drunk was after 31. I feel alone, really alone.
But people like you help and I wanted to express my gratitude.