KIR, I totally get "slitting the addict into good and bad. I used to call AH Mr. Hyde when he was using. I thought he transformed into a monster like a wherewolf during his relapses.
It's still hard for me to accept that he is both all of the time. I know that I love his potential, so I think that maybe you're right that you could be in love with your AHs potential too.
Is there anyway you can contact the DMV to cancel the plates on the truck since they aren't on a vehicle you want to be registered to? Maybe you won't get them back... but it would at least make them invalid.