Hi Dee. I may have put that forth wrong, but my son has tried to contact me for over a year now. Probably to tell me about his fiancé. I guess I'm trying to say that he's never avoided me, and has always tried to include me in his life. It's always been me doing the avoiding.
Thanks for saying you miss me Sasha. The only plans I have for now is to continue working with my T to figure out why I do this. And maybe try and convince myself that it is ok for me to contact him, and others, even after this long.
I am fully aware of how hard I am on myself, but I guess I kinda have to figure out why I don't like who I am, before I can start liking myself. Maybe then I can go a bit easier on myself.
Anyways thanks guys.
And yes it is nice to know I'm not alone in doing this brynn, although I'm sorry what it put you through.