hey weird, hope you're feeling better today.
Like Nuu - I recently relapsed after a 6.5 month sober period. Went to Cuba and ended up having some wine as well. Luckily, I caught on fast that I was NOT enjoying the feelings it brought back and quickly stopped, able to enjoy my vacay sober as planned.
You had 8 months, they DID happen. It wasn't a figment of your imagination. You can start again, we all can. Don't let this turn into something more. You can do this.