Although my ex never abused me physically, when he would screw up because of his drinking and not do something he was supposed to, or ruin our night by passing out, he would always buy me something special that he knew I wanted. Sadly, because of the reason I was getting it, it took the 'special' out of it.
Both of my parents, both alcoholics, would do the same - instead of showing me an ounce of parental affection and love, they'd just buy me. I remember friends saying how lucky I was because I always had nice things, when meanwhile, I was jealous of them for having parents that actually cared instead of trying to buy their love because they were completely and utterly incapable of showing it in a meaningful way.
I think I may be a little angry tonight.
