Hi, Brad, and welcome.
I'm ChrisMan and my primary addiction is sex/porn addiction, accompanied by abusive use of alcohol and sometimes drugs. I could relate to so much of what you have been saying. I had a recent relapse, a bad and scary one, and now I've got some counseling going and, like you, will be part of a program to help me connect with some issues buried since childhood.
SA (Sexaholics Anonymous) and SLAA (Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous) both have websites you can check out. There is also Secret Addictions website, which is also very good.
For me, I am only now discovering how necessary it is to have a sponsor, someone you can call on the phone and talk with directly and hear his voice. Mine kept me sober, especially last weekend.
Hope all goes well with your recovery. All of us are just trying to keep going one day at a time. Welcome!!
