Pour that beer out right now and then go read every thread you ever started and every comment in those threads until you get to this one. Use all the things you have learned in 8 months to save your life right now before this turns into a month, 6 months, a year, 2 years before you try and stop again. I have no doubt you have been around this site long enough to know how this goes- it does not end well. Unless you stop right now. Not tomorrow, not next Tuesday. Stopping gets harder, not easier, and just think of what you already went through when you stopped 8 months ago. The fog! The fatigue! The self-loathing. Please don't go back. It's in no way too late right now. Just pick yourself up and stop today.
Do it for yourself.