relapsed after 8 months
Well.. s**it!
I had 8 months. in 28 november i drank half a bottle of red wine. Don't ask me why, i was too nervous about intimate relations, because i never did it sober. I didn't enjoyed it, and i think i would have done better without it. I thought it was just a slip, because i didn't had the need to drink afterwards.
Anyway, yesterday, 10 days later, i wanted to drink a beer with a friend i haven't seen in a long time. The truth is, i wanted just to drink. Suddenly.
And i did, 6 of them. I called in sick at work today. Because i was sick. I convinced me that i don't like it and this will never happen again.
But here i am, several hours later, with 4 beers waiting next to me. I must be insane. I feel like all this sober time didn't even exist. I feel just like 8 months ago. All i want is to drink them.
I failed all of you those who helped me getting past bad times. I failed myself.