Thinking of you today Ocean as you lay your son to rest. It is another step in the process of trying to heal another horrible wound caused by addiction.
Your story is a great reminder to addicts like myself that addiction is real and so are the consequences. While I was back in my active using days I liked to try to downplay it to myself. You know I really wasn't that bad. I really wasn't hurting anyone but myself. I could quit if I really wanted to. I will quit tomorrow. Just once more. I deserve it. Complete and utter nonsense, but made perfect sense at the time. To thine own self be true.
My prayers go out to you and just wanted you to know strangers all over the world are praying for you as well.