Lovenjoy

i have been thinking a lot lately about the 'trying to talk' to my as. it is futile no matter what the topic is it seems... i too often think he is so much like a 15 year old. and i'm at fault in conversations too, just so much behind every aspect of our relationship.

it is one more thing i/we have lost as we've been yakking at each other about anything and everything since he was very young. he was always wonderful company. i miss him and he is standing right in front of me.

but lately i am consciously not having conversations i would like to have, at least the important ones, as he's just not capable... and actually accepting this, because it is what it is, has made life more peaceful. awkward, but peaceful...