I bet to see him look at your baby like that is awesome...congratulations, it seems you have a happy family there. Thats something to be happy about as opposed to sad. If you read back your post you will see that you feel he is not using again and that he is living in the here and now with you. Sure, maybe the prescription drugs are helping him through it and maybe he can slowly drop them also. I see a lot to be happy about so please try to relax and see a glass that may well be more than half full. That doesn't mean being naive or losing your vigilance, it just means enjoying the progress that your husband may very well have made.