Opi! You just might have saved your life with that new needle! Good job on not trusting the stuff!
No need to beat yourself up! I've been back and forth on the popping pills and not popping pills myself. If it was possible to tell ourselves: "Okay! I'm done! Time to stop and do it?" SR really wouldn't be needed! Now would it?
Do what you need to do to stay off the stuff!
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