Y'all are right. It's not a lie that we are having problems and I need a break. I feel like I'm making excuses because the truth is I'm scared. I'm unsure of myself and feeling totally insecure. I don't trust myself to make good choices right now. But staying here is NOT a good choice and even I know that!
I need to swallow my pride (ha what little I have left) and call someone. Secrets are killers.