I'm seriously considering all this. I know I shouldn't let his reaction control what I do, but I also have to live in reality on this.
I hate to admit this but I'm hesitant to call anyone in real life because then they'll know I'm trying to get sober. I don't want my friends and family to know because if I fail, then I will just have let them down again and confirmed what they already think about me...that I'm too far gone and there's no hope left for me. Does that make any sense to y'all? I don't want people in my life to see me fail again!