Hi AZ...
Glad you are here, get comfy and explore the board here... there is alot of experience, stength and hope floating around this place... tools that help us on the road to recovery.
I was unable to stop drinking on my own and between this place and my support and involvment with AA, I am finally (after 10 yrs.) in a healthy place and grateful for each and every day that i am sober.
Remember that you are not alone...